So - here we go. A place to let my mind wander - a place where I can let myself go. The past few months have been crazy - a medical nightmare. I have seen much more of a hospital than I would like to see in my whole life ever - no I'm not dying although there have been times I thought it might be easier. I'm facing surgery and deep down it scares me...I'm almost 40 with no visions anytime soon of marriage and/or family and now I'm facing the possibility of never having that family of my own. Maybe that's why I enjoy family history so much - it's my life and my family and the work is my children.
I have put off so many things because I have always thought that I must work all the time and make money. I have learned in the past few months that life is about living - not making money. I want to live my dreams - I want to learn more about history and put my hands in some dirt or in someplace that no one has touched in hundreds of years to see what I can find. I want to learn all about my family and the kinds of people they were and how they helped to shape me into who I am. I want to know more about why I am so interested in Civil War history and World War 2 history, all things Titanic and Abraham Lincoln and Henry VIII. I want to learn !
So here I am at 38 years old - attempting to finish my AA degree and to head to a major university to learn about my first love and start to enjoy life. I don't want to be a State worker forever and grow miserable in my job - I want to love it!
I'm not sure what the next blogging sessions will bring - it may some historical facts I find fascinating or something I found in my genealogy work - this is about me and what goes through this crazy mind. So - sit back and enjoy the ride. I can promise it should get interesting.
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